addiction, alcohol, recovery, sobriety, the middle


I would just like to start off by saying THANK YOU SO MUCH to everyone who has left kind words of motivation and advice on my blog or via email.  I am in the same position as a lot of you with just starting out and communication with you while we are going through this together has been a life saver.  As well as those of you who have gone through this and know what I am going through and giving me words of encouragement – you all are incredibly amazing!  I truly do not believe I would be on day 8 without you guys and without this blog!  OK… sappy sappy over here.  Sorry about that!  🙂

SO! After a long, exhausting, and emotional roller coaster of a week, I made it!  I made it through.  Did I have a mini break down?!  YES!  Good lord Friday was rough.  I got a text from my friend asking me to go out.. I said no of course to concentrate on myself for the weekend and what was her response “oh come on!  alcohol will help!!”  ugh.  Sadly no – it will not.  

I did realize that I was harvesting a lot of hurt and pain which I had clearly had been avoiding for years.  I was so concerned with “not feeling” I have been damn near drunk everyday in order to not deal with things for the past 4 years.  And boy did they come running back – and fast.  BUT!  On a positive note… I am here.  I am on day 8 and I could not be more excited about that!  I finally told my best friend after the long week (whom I cannot hide ANYTHING from anyways and he already knew something was up.)  And he was nothing but supportive.  He knows that it has been a long journey for me and alcohol and he couldn’t be more positive and there for me.  His response “OH THAT’S GREAT!!!  You know how I love sober nights in ;)”  hehehehe.  Today is the day I will tell my boyfriend who I assume will have an equally positive reaction.  🙂  I have read multiple times that the first week is the hardest – and while I cannot attest to this as I am only beginning week 2, I can only hope that is true.  I wish to not relive last week for the life of me, hahahaha.