Is what covers my face today. As I got entirely too drunk by myself yesterday. Why do I do that? I have no idea and I know I will regret it. And yet I always convince myself to do it. I have fallen hard off the wagon and it is only up to me to get back on. No one else can make make me do it. I know what I want – I want sobriety. I want to experience life sober. I want to look better, feel better, and improve my life. A lot of positive changes are going to happen in my 26th year of life and I want that change to be part of it. I do not NEED alcohol. I choose to poison my body and it needs to stop. So here it is – I am an alcoholic. I have a very large problem. And I am ready to not let that define me. So here it is world – DAY 1.