I was doing so good for two weeks… and then I wasn’t. Just like that in a flip of a switch I am back where I started. How does our brain get so trained into thinking we need this substance on a day to day basis. I woke up hating myself after drinking a bottle (and by bottle I mean more like a bottle and half) of wine last night. Somehow I always convince myself, “well you have no days under your belt, or only two days under your belt, so why bother”. And back to the bottle I go.
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drunk on sauv 
It a bastard alright. Back to square one……..
yup… not great.
This thing we have is indeed a tenacious beast.
Do you have a revised plan going forward?
Sadly no. Just trying to get myself in the place to give this another go. One of these times it will stick… I know it will!
Good mindset – if you believe it you can achieve it.
You have to change up something. aA? Smart recovery? Therapy? Asking your family for help.
If nothing changes, nothing changes.
There’s so much life to live. Don’t let booze hold you back. It’s not your friend and it’s only taking away.
Hug. This is a hard thing. But it gets better.
I can so relate to this right now, but you know what, if we don’t keep trying we will never get there, and it’s worth it. The hardest things usually are. So don’t stop trying you CAN do it x
I’m there, too. Starting over today. Cinco de Mayo seems as good a day as any. How to Be a Sober Girl is starting a 30 day kick start program today. http://howtobeasobergirl.com/2015/05/01/how-to-be-a-sober-girl-the-30-day-kickstart/
Good luck!
Ugh…I so feel for you. Been there. Done that. Always afraid that I will go back since I am so new to sobriety.
I would urge you to come up with a solid plan and really work on building your support team. I had to look at getting sober in a whole new way and work that. I’m now on Day 54. A day I’ve been struggling towards for YEARS. Until this time around I NEVER got more than 2 weeks sober.
If you need to chat, email me at 100daypledge@gmail.com.
This is hard. Don’t do it alone.
Cognrats CB!!!! That is awesome!!!! I am so envious. What got you through the first 30?
Honestly, I’m not really sure. I thought moving cross country would get rid of my drinking problem. It didn’t. In fact, my drinking increased and reached scary new heights since I had no job and nothing to do all day.
Things were getting worse and I just stopped. My body felt awful, my bf and I were fighting all the time and I knew I’d lose everything if I didn’t get a grip. The first couple of weeks were AWFUL, but I just kept going. Wracking up days. Now I’m at 64. It’s still difficult, but life got so, so much better very quickly.
Good luck!
Ugh. I am back at square one today too 😦 I am hoping this was the last trip back into the bottle. I just don’t understand how our brains can just flip the switch in a second knowing good and well that its going to regret it in the morning. Please check out my blog adrunkendisaster.wordpress.com if you have time.
I completely agree. Today is my day one and I am so ready to do this! I will definitely look at your blog! Thanks!
Who ever said being sober makes ya feel great is talking bollox. Ten days without and I feel like death.
I know… finally got to the point of being ready to do this again. How are you doing?
Hanging in just…….
Good luck lovely. Don’t be cross with yourself just because you have not managed it yet. Please don’t stop working toward it because when you do get alcohol free it will be very worth it. I promise you x x x
Thank you! Took me a couple of hard weeks to mentally prepare myself to start again. But here I am. Almost through day 1!
Same place again day one and d stench of booze
same here. Took me a couple weeks of binge drinking to get my head in the place to try this again. So sad. and disgusting.
Hey! Thinking of you… shoot me an email sometime. I hope you are doing well, and most importantly I hope you are happy.
Hey! Hope you are well. Things are ok – up and down right now. But I have faith things will improve. 🙂 xoxo