This is a first… 10 days in and while I have secluded myself from all plans – tonight that comes to an end. I have booked a two night stay in a small beach city for my boyfriend and I to escape the city of LA to just lay around and relax. The sober part of me is so thrilled it is just him and I as he is not a huge drinker and he knows what I am trying to accomplish by abstaining from alcohol so will likely not drink while we are away to support me and to not make it harder for me. I think about being in Cabo San Lucas three weeks ago and how I just sat on the beach, laid out and drank all day. This weekend will be significantly different and in my head I am imagining a lot less fun. I am trying to remain positive, but I do see the struggle which lies a head and is only a few hours away.