Where am I.
This is not the me I use to know.
At some point I took a wrong turn.
The point of that turn is unknown.
My heads a mess and I can’t think straight.
I don’t know how I got here in the first place.
This position we r in was never my intention.
I just started crying and then it happened.
Was it subconscious?
Was it assumptive?
So many questions,
To which I don’t have the answer.
Writing was always an outlet.
But as I sit here, I struggle to type.
The emotions have been blocked for so long.
I think they may even be gone.
Blocking emotions with booze, denial and silence.
Hoping never to acknowledge or feel the pain.
Even blocking the inner words of myself.
These are the things that have led me here today.
drunk on sauv 
Beautiful. And I have felt exactly that way.
The emotions will return. It’s all so strange and scary. But worth it.
First step. Stop questioning it all for now. Forget about why. Just don’t drink.
That’s it. You can work in the rest later.
Big hug
Anne
Keep moving forward. It WILL get better. I promise promise promise. Hugs from Atlanta! Xo
Awareness is 75% of the battle. You’ve come so far and you are finding doors. They will open soon, and there will be light and peace behind them. Hugs.