So today is not a good day. Not a good day for that little devil – or as some refer to her “Wolfie”. She is harping hard at me today and in my head I hate that I have put myself in this situation. Some days are significantly easier than others and today is not one of those days. I think about how bad of a day it has been and how amazing a glass or bottle or whatever would be when I get home. Maybe it’s because I got into an argument last night and still feeling uncertain if its resolved completely I wish I could drink to forget about what had happened. I know that this is what wine does to me and while writing right now I again realize that I use wine as a scapegoat. I use wine to get away from how I feel in order to bury it, push it aside, and not deal with it. This is not a good idea, yes I know. And no I will not drink. I will face going home – sober – ugh. As awful as that sounds right now. Don’t really have anything else to say today… other than… I WANT WINE!
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Oh I know this feeling .. sounds trite but if u cam resolve the argument or accept there’s no resolution it may help ….
thanks for the feedback! I did just that and today is a much better day! 🙂
Wine always feels like the answer, but it rarely is. Know that those feelings – while awful and overwhelming – they pass.
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Thanks CB! 🙂 Your the best!
Aww… Hang in there… Pamper yourself, treat yourself (not with wine!). Watch a movie, take a bath, devour some chocolate. I don’t advocate cruelty to animals, but right now wolfie needs a good kick!
hahahahahaha this made me laugh out loud. lol. today is a much better day!
Hey, just gone through your blog and I think you are doing really well. I too, suffer from the evil curse of, want a drink, need a drink, have a drink. I haven’t been able to kick it completely, but I applaud you for doing it. Keep up the good work. 🙂 X
Thank you so much lordmikle! It is not an easy battle I can tell you that much. I am sure you will get there when you are ready… I have gone back and fourth a lot so I know the feeling! 🙂 Thanks for following!
I know that feeling well. I’m glad your day is better now. I just got invited out for ‘drinks’ after a show I’m seeing tonight, and it brought that craving right back… wanting a glass of wine. I’m resolved not to have any though. Today is my first day.
Good for you Lauredann. I literally have to go day by day – “Today I will be sober. Today I will not drink”. Everyday. hahaha. And good for you for going out! I have not ventured out yet since I stopped drinking :-/. So I applaud you!