addiction, alcohol, recovery, sobriety, the middle

WOW. ONE WEEK.

I would just like to start off by saying THANK YOU SO MUCH to everyone who has left kind words of motivation and advice on my blog or via email.  I am in the same position as a lot of you with just starting out and communication with you while we are going through this together has been a life saver.  As well as those of you who have gone through this and know what I am going through and giving me words of encouragement – you all are incredibly amazing!  I truly do not believe I would be on day 8 without you guys and without this blog!  OK… sappy sappy over here.  Sorry about that!  🙂

SO! After a long, exhausting, and emotional roller coaster of a week, I made it!  I made it through.  Did I have a mini break down?!  YES!  Good lord Friday was rough.  I got a text from my friend asking me to go out.. I said no of course to concentrate on myself for the weekend and what was her response “oh come on!  alcohol will help!!”  ugh.  Sadly no – it will not.  

I did realize that I was harvesting a lot of hurt and pain which I had clearly had been avoiding for years.  I was so concerned with “not feeling” I have been damn near drunk everyday in order to not deal with things for the past 4 years.  And boy did they come running back – and fast.  BUT!  On a positive note… I am here.  I am on day 8 and I could not be more excited about that!  I finally told my best friend after the long week (whom I cannot hide ANYTHING from anyways and he already knew something was up.)  And he was nothing but supportive.  He knows that it has been a long journey for me and alcohol and he couldn’t be more positive and there for me.  His response “OH THAT’S GREAT!!!  You know how I love sober nights in ;)”  hehehehe.  Today is the day I will tell my boyfriend who I assume will have an equally positive reaction.  🙂  I have read multiple times that the first week is the hardest – and while I cannot attest to this as I am only beginning week 2, I can only hope that is true.  I wish to not relive last week for the life of me, hahahaha.

 

7 thoughts on “WOW. ONE WEEK.

  1. YAY! Proud of you, haha.
    But really, the first week is really hard. And getting negative feedback doesn’t make it any better. I’m glad you have a good best friend. On the other hand, though, I had to deal with a few commends from close friends who tried to encourage me to go to the bars with them instead of support my efforts. That’ll probably happen a lot. You just have to hold on to the words of the good ones 🙂 Hope you celebrated with some ice cream or something!

    1. hahah thank you!!! and I am sure I will have those friends too. ugh. people sometimes lol. just dont understand. and i will tonight!! i bought a mini cheesecake, hahah yuuuummm!

  2. Awesome! Woot woot to day 8! And welcome to week 2. So glad you chose to share you’re journey with us. There is an amazing community here! The beginning of anything new is the hardest, think of it as learning to ride a bike or starting a new job. Just stay positive, open minded and connected! And some cheesecake sure does help! Yummmm!

  3. Congratulations on your one week sober, Sauv! You should be proud of yourself 🙂 I’m only on day two but I already know that the weekend is going to be difficult, I’m not sure that I know what to do with two full days to myself when I’m not drinking. It’s good that you have told someone, especially when that someone is a close friend. Now you can talk to them about it when if you find yourself struggling. Keep up the good work!

    1. I felt the exact same way! Just keep yourself busy for the first day and get through it – the second day will be much easier if you get through the first day! I walked to a farmers market, drove to the beach – ran, etc. Made it a lot less stressful! 🙂 Fill free to email me if you need anything! drunkonsauv@gmail.com 🙂

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